Woo-woo

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“Woo-woo is a slang term used to describe those who believe in phenomena that lacks substantiated evidence to prove the claim of the phenomena.”—urbandictionary.com

Life Coaches have life coaches.

I had an appointment with my life coach, but I didn’t have anything I felt I needed coached on.

Life was good. I was feeling better than ever. I’ve been doing lots of work on myself and was feeling pretty good about my thoughts and my actions and the results I am creating in my life.

I told her all this, and she said, “What are you feeling right now?”

I said, “Empowered.”

She said, “When you feel empowered what color is it?”

I said, “Peaceful blue.”

She said, “Where do you feel it in your body?”

I said, “In my heart and in my smile.”

She said, “If you could equate it to an object, what object is it?”

I said, “An expanding balloon.”

It was kind of a fun exercise. It was a little awkward. It was a little woo-woo-ey.

Because life isn’t always rainbows and unicorns, a couple days later I was feeling discouraged. I had a coaching session that didn’t go so well. I ate cake and ice cream for my grandchildren’s birthdays. I didn’t beat myself up about that, but I had seconds and even a third sliver and that brought up some self-judgment. Well, you get the jest.

Intellectually I know it’s my thoughts creating feelings of discouragement. But I couldn’t seem to change my thoughts.

But then I remembered the “peaceful blue expanding balloon.” As I was able to visualize that feeling I was able to recreate it and then those empowering thoughts associated with it came.

Next time you are feeling great, notice the way you are feeling. Label it with a color, an object, a location in your body. Then the next time those negative feelings surface, try to recreate the positive feeling by remembering the color, the object, and the location in your body.

Unconditional Love

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Unconditional love means you love someone no matter what they do.

I kind of alluded to this in the “About” section of my blog, but there is an issue in my relationship with my husband that has been a bit of a thorn in my side.  In January 2019, I decided the subject was taboo.  I wasn’t going to think about it, focus on it, or address it. 

Over the 33 years we have been married, I have brought the conversation up many times.  When I talked with him about it, I spoke from a place of frustration, exasperation, defensiveness, sorrow, anger, and/or blame.  Acting from those feelings never brought me the results I desired. 

Feelings do impact how we act which then affects our results. 

If you go into a job interview feeling confident, then you have a better chance of showing up as your best possible self in the interview.  If you go into a job interview doubting yourself and your ability to do the job, the interviewee will see that in your actions and your words. 

It’s been 13 months and I finally felt ready to talk to my husband about the elephant in the room.  I was feeling unconditional love for him and for me.  The conversation went better than it ever has before. 

Maybe you hate your job and you want to leave it.  Don’t leave from a place of hate.  Because you know what happens?  You find something to hate about your next job. 

Your next husband. 

The next city you live in. 

The next family reunion. 

Fill in the blank. 

Maybe you let your married daughter’s family move back in with you because they fell on hard times.  Now it’s time for them to move out.  If you confront them about the situation from a place of desperation, overwhelm, and/or annoyance, the conversation is going to go differently than if you come from a place of love. 

Get to a place of love first.  Then decide what your next step will be.  It may just take a few minutes to get there.  It may take 13 months.  It’s worth the time. 

Try On A New Thought

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I’m looking at the clothes on the rack.  I can go through them quickly because I know what looks good on me and what doesn’t.  I really like this one but I know it’s not my style, so I move on.  But I can’t stop thinking about how cute it is.  But I’ve already convinced myself that it won’t look good on me. 

That’s what we do with our thoughts.  We have this strong belief system and don’t allow ourselves to even try on another thought.  To see if it might look good on us. 

We keep choosing the buttoned down, collared shirts that are black and navy and white.

What’s it going to hurt to try on the lacy periwinkle one?

I love the TV show Biggest Loser.  The contestants inspire me.  On Episode #1, Phi Holmes was struggling for breath and said, “I can’t breathe.”  Trainer Erica Lugo said, “Yes, you can.” 

“I can’t breathe” seemed like a true statement.  I believed Phi when she said it.  How come Erica didn’t believe her?   Well obviously Phi was still breathing. 

Our brain is filled with thoughts like:

I’m always late.

I hate my job.

My husband never does nice things for me.

My kids are so naughty.

We say it like it’s fact and then we offer up all the evidence to prove it.

When my son participated in high school debate, he found out minutes before the round whether he would argue for the resolution or against it.  Do that with your thoughts.  Take the opposing view and defend it.  Am I really ALWAYS late?  Or can I defend that I’m on time?

You get to decide whether to buy the new outfit or put it back on the rack.  You get to decide what you want to believe.  To help you decide look at the results you are creating.  If you like the results, then hang on the belief.  If you don’t like the result, try out a new thought.

When I’ve asked clients to try this, they say, “I feel like I’m lying to myself.”  Well, what if the belief you’ve been holding on to since high school is the lie?  It’s time to discover the truth that will help you create the life you want.  Be curious. There’s no harm done.  In the end, you get to choose what thought you want to hold on to. 

Morning Meltdown 100

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I just recently completed Morning Meltdown 100. One hundred days of cardio, strength, core, flexibility, boxing, and yoga.

It was a great workout.

I feel Motivated.  Inspired. 

In episode #79, Jericho McMatthews said, “If you want to create change on the outside, you’ve got to make it happen on the inside first.  That means you’ve got to make up your mind.”

This is so true.  It wasn’t finishing the 100 days of workouts that made me feel motivated and inspired.  I was feeling that before I even had the results or got to the finish line.  We tend to think that we are a certain way because we have the results to prove it.

Scenario #1: I’m unhealthy because I’m 100 pounds overweight.  That’s a thought.  A thought that probably brings up feelings of sluggishness or lethargy.  Those feelings aren’t going to create the desired actions and results.  From those feelings, we probably sit on the couch every evening binging on shows.

Scenario #2: I’m 100 pounds overweight, but my body is amazing.  That’s a thought.  Maybe one you don’t believe right now.  But really think about it.  Quit entertaining your “go-to” thought about how out of shape you are and think about how your legs get you from home to work every day.  Your arms that lift toddlers and give teenagers hugs. 

You can find evidence for both thoughts.

But from the thought, “My body is amazing” you might experience a feeling of appreciation for your body.  Then you are more likely to create some actions beginning with positive self-talk (thanks body for allowing me to walk to the mailbox) or giving back to your body by slowing down when eating and enjoying the taste of food rather than eating quickly.  Because seriously, taste buds are pretty amazing. 

It’s the thought that will make you feel motivated or inspired to take the actions that will get you the results you want. 

What thought creates feelings of motivation for you?  Try it on and start creating the life you want.

Expensive Ghosts

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I’ve been writing my personal history.  Which means I have been digging through pictures and journal entries.  Which means I’ve been reliving in my mind events from the past.  There are definitely wonderful memories.  But the ones I’ve been pondering are the painful ones.

In high school, I tried out for cheerleader freshmen year.  We performed our routine on the stage in front of the freshman class.  During a pyramid part of our routine, we toppled to the floor.  I was so embarrassed.  I guess I was resilient though because senior year I campaigned for senior class president.  The three candidates were called into the principal’s office just before the announcement was made to the school. I was mortified.  It was a tie between the other two candidates. 

What makes it a painful memory?  Not the falling. It’s painful because I still let the 30-year-old memory shelter me from doing things that might evoke embarrassment.  I have an emotional comfort zone and I remember how humiliation feels and I don’t want to feel it again.  But seriously, it’s just a vibration in the body.  Pretty sure I could feel humiliation again and live another 30 years. 

We probably all have those types of defining moments in our life. 

--We raise our hand in the 5th grade only to get the answer wrong.  The other students snicker and the teacher looks disappointed.  We feel stupid.

--A parent praises the older sibling constantly.  The younger sibling makes choices with the hope of getting the parent’s approval. We feel invisible.

 --Someone said, “Why do you have to be so nosy?”  Now we avoid being inquisitive because it might be misconstrued.  We feel offended.

Maybe it was a moment in time.  One thing said that pierced. Maybe it was a couple times, but then we spend our life looking for evidence to prove we are stupid, or invisible, or offensive.  Maybe it was hundreds of moments drilled for years.  Either way it’s time to let it go.  Just because it was said doesn’t make it truth.

“We drag expensive ghosts through memory’s unmade bed.”

-Paul Hoover, Theory of Margins

We let those experiences—those ghosts—occupy too big a space in our lives.  They are expensive to our time, our energy, our well-being.  They rob us, if we allow them to, of living up to our potential. 

When we choose to stay in our emotional comfort zone, we are actually still choosing discomfort.  We avoid the discomfort of putting ourselves out there, but we trade it for the discomfort of not living the life we want. 

Why do we hang on to past beliefs that aren’t serving us anymore?  Why do we make it mean something horrible about ourselves?  It’s time to break free of those limiting beliefs and start believing we are smart, extraordinary, self-assured. Because we are.

Gratitude, Giving, and Goals

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I love this time of year. When people ask, “What is your favorite holiday?” I want to say New Years. Not New Years Day or New Years Eve, but the new year. It feels like a time of fresh starts. And it comes on the heels of some other pretty great holidays. Thanksgiving: when we reflect on all the many things for which we are grateful. Christmas: when we have the opportunity to think of our loved ones and show our love through giving. A time when we reflect on Jesus Christ and the life He led. And then New Year: a time to ponder on what we would like to do differently.

In one of the Chronicle of Narnia series, Jill, Eustace, and Puddleglum are given an assignment by Aslan to rescue the Prince. They are returning to Cair Paravel with the assignment complete. Even then, Jill felt like their assignment had been botched and bungled. She discouragingly looked back on the details of the events and felt she hadn’t been able to do a single thing right. As she stood in front of Aslan to report, she opened her mouth to say, “I’m sorry.” But the Lion, as if he could read her mind, stopped her short. “Think of that no more,” he said. “You have done the work for which I sent you into Narnia.”

As I look over the past years, sometimes I feel like Jill in that I have botched and bungled my resolves. The things I hoped and wanted to accomplish didn’t quite happen the way I planned them. Yet still, I’ve learned things that have helped me to grow. One thing I’ve realized is that what I want to happen and how I think it’s going to happen differs from what usually happens. Yet in the end, I believe I’m learning the lessons that need to be learned.

As we look back over the past years, I hope we can overlook the things that were blotched and bungled and that we can feel pleased with the things that went well.

Feeling all the Feelings

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There is nothing like holidays and family togetherness to bring up lots of emotions.

Scarcity. Generosity. Sadness. Happiness. Overwhelm. Peace. Joy. Love. Nostalgia. Grumpy. Crazed. Excited. Anticipation. Festive.

I despise putting up Christmas decorations. I don’t like the time investment and mess of getting everything out and then having to put it all away. I would rather be reading The Mansion by Henry Van Dyke or watching a Hallmark Christmas show or taking goodies to my neighbors.

I dread going Christmas shopping. It takes a lot of thought work to get my family a gift that I hope they will enjoy.

There are parts I love about the holidays too.

I love when the kids and their families all come home. I love playing games and cooking food and spending time together.

I am excited to wrap gifts and put them under the tree.

I enjoy several of our Christmas traditions.

I chuckle when I listen to a recording of my 90-year-old Granny singing The Twelve Days of Christmas off-key and with the wrong words some verses. 

I feel peace listening to the reading in Luke of the Savior’s birth.

I appreciate sitting around the table eating dinner with my family.

Often we try to push away those feelings of anxiety over travel or the disappointment of not receiving a desired gift.  Or the sadness of a loved one no longer with us.

When we resist feelings, they get bigger. Like resistance training for our muscles.  When I try to resist my “bah-humbug” attitude about some Christmas activities, I add the feeling of shame to the despise and the dread. I go from, “I dread putting the ornaments on the tree” to “I shouldn’t be feeling that way” to “I’m such a grinch.”

Our emotions are created by our thoughts.

So, take some time this holiday to observe your emotions and be aware of the thought you are having that is creating it.

Notice what that emotion feels like in your body. Allow that feeling to come and stay for awhile and then allow it to continue on its way. When we recognize that a feeling is just a vibration in our body, then it is manageable.

My dad passed away nine years ago on Christmas Eve. When I pause from the hustle and the bustle, I notice that I am sad. I want to feel sad. I miss him. I don’t want to push that feeling away. But I don’t want to get overwhelmed by it either. I notice it for as long as I need to. Then instead of it becoming overpowering, I feel peaceful.

Grow as We Go

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In May, my daughter invited me to attend Ben Platt’s “Sing to Me Instead” tour in San Fransisco. At the concert he sang a song “Grow As We Go”.  Check out the music video. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aDeNQNtW1f8

The song and music video reminded me of relationships that have ended because one person wants to go a different direction OR start over “without baggage” OR find themselves OR find a new partner they think will make them happier.

But I want you to know that changing your circumstance by cutting people out of your life isn’t the best first option.  In fact, painful relationships are some of the best opportunities for growth.

We can grow in every situation.

We can start over with the “baggage.”

We can go on a personal journey of discovery with the kids and the husband and the in-laws.

We can be happy in our current relationship.

We think if we get a new job or win the lottery or meet our soul mate then we will be happier. But if we can’t make peace with our current situation then we probably won’t enjoy the new situation either. 

I’m not saying that leaving the relationship is or isn’t the best choice.  Only you know the answer to that.  What I am saying is it’s worth the time investment to explore why you think you can’t grow if another person is in your life or why you might blame the other person for you not showing up as the person you want to show up as or why you think you will suffer less if they are gone. 

I encourage you to practice showing up every day as who you want to be. Regardless of the circumstances.

Maybe….just maybe, when YOU feel happiness in your life, your relationship becomes healthier too.